I chose to take a month off from writing. Not because I couldn’t figure out what to post on my blog, but because mentally, I needed a break from obsessing over my blog. Don’t get me wrong, I love writing … because of writing I am able to express every innermost thought in my wild mind. But – I realized that it seemed to be more of a job that last couple of months, and I have to admit, not getting the feedback or the push I was so desperately looking for was devastating.
I’ve come to realize that sometimes I give up on things and make it seems as if they’re too difficult when, in fact, I fill my head up with so much negativity about my success. I spend a lot of my time comparing my blogs to others, wondering how one person could have “x” number of followers and comments on their blog, and trying to revamp mine so it’s perfect. That’s just the thing, nothing is ever meant to be perfect and I have to be more than okay with that. Measuring the success of others in comparison with mine is what I should not be doing. After all, I’m human and I can’t expect myself to be perfect all the time, nor can I expect the success of others to come to me in such a short amount of time. What I do know is that whether I’ve reached a million people, or ten, to know that somebody out there is reading this and understands is more than enough.
This blog gives me a purpose and allows me to connect with others on a deeper level, something I haven’t been able to do in a long. In a sense, the four months that I have spent working on this blog and writing has taught me a lot more about myself than I thought I ever knew. It’s allowed me to be free, to give a voice to others who may be going through some of the same issues I have felt before, and may not have the courage to share their story. More importantly, it’s allowed me to connect with others and make new connections with people, and for that, I am truly grateful.
I thank you all for the outpouring of love, and allowing me to get over my insecurities of comparing my blog to everybody else’s – thank you for sticking around with me. It was a much needed month of clarity, and I can’t wait to share more stories with you along the way.